In the month of March 2022, HCI initiated a special theme. We encouraged HCI members to ‘Share What They Have Never Shared Before’. This initiative was a huge success and saw many members open up and share their experiences. Here’s a glimpse at some of the quotes shared by members.
1. Due to childhood trauma, I have spent most of my life pleasing people. I have Co-dependency and I am always scared of people leaving me. I’ve taken a lot of shit, been in a toxic relationship… I have started to feel good about myself through therapy.
2. I have a history of suicide attempts and self-harm episodes. I am on medication.
3. I’ll do anything to get the approval of people… to get acceptance of my sexuality… to be invited to events. Therefore I’ve been treated like a doormat – but not anymore.
4. I am earning in lakhs but I am not happy. I feel empty and my self-worth comes from others, not from within. I take meds to manage my anxiety.
5. I took my car to the gas station in the middle of the night to run away from my thoughts. I am constantly worrying about what people think about me. I am scared of getting into another relationship and want to understand how to deal with my emotions and other people.
6. I am petrified of taking decisions. I have made impulsive decisions and quit my studies and jobs in anger. I regret it a lot.
7. My partner died. I had a fantastic connection with her. I felt loved and understood by her. I indulge in BDSM to find the same love and connection. And when I don’t find it, I drink a lot of alcohol to numb my pain. I am taking help to manage my feelings in a healthier way.
8. I am gay and have been assaulted a few times. I was hallucinating for 6 months and there was nobody to talk to or any kind of support. My friend banged the door on my face.
9. I was accused of molestation and it deeply affected me. I was in such a bad state that I was brought home in a wheelchair. And now I feel that I don’t deserve love.
10. I was molested and I couldn’t do anything. I was scared that the oppressor would end my life. I have got into addictive cruising and BDSM. I am learning to forgive myself and understand that I was helpless as a child.
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